yesterday. monday 7 sep 09

yesterday, was like so terrible la..

was @ NYP the whole day on the N.E mation 4! competition, just sucks
shortlisted for top 40! but got eliminated, i not sad but i felt like i had wasted my entire time there. i rather spent that day worshiping God, dwell in His presence the whole day.
It will be the best thing ever. just kept emoing these few days.

Yesterday ask her a few questions of my worries on her, cause it has affected my rest and spirit and emoing all the time... i don't know but.. even they were answered but i just don't feel peace in y heart about it. just hope if she would tell me face to face
then i think i will have assurance..

DreamTeamer Edwin! praised Jesus at 9/08/2009 09:52:00 AM


about Saturday 05 sep' 09

Hmmm... I was ill on that day sia! i was out since 7 in the morning! i had to go simei and meet my i.t trainer and group members for N.E mation 4! planning on Monday's presentation. i stay till 3 plus then we went to buy lots and lots of post-it pads to prepare for presentation too! the i headed down to church for service in Paya Lebar, Singapore Post center

during service i don't know why i just felt breathless and not able to concentrate on Pastor Lia's sermon i felt weak. but.. what was i suppose to do? till the end of service i still feel the same.. then Kaye bought me a bottle of mineral water(thanks KAYE!) at least i felt better after that..

i couldn't eat anything just, not feeling well and no money too.. and nobody to turn to and just cry in my heart:( cause i didn't eat the whole day then i had a very bad gastric...
then my dad called me, told me to go home earlier and said that i always reach home late in the evening for the whole week, and he assumed that i was in church but i was in SCHOOL! then i so called had a fight on the phone with my dad.

i couldn't felt worst, i don't know what to do, i just feel like crying at that point of time, but is like outside KFC and with the CEG. kaye asked me what happen.. then i told her everything, she is like the only person who knows everything ablout what happened, i decided to hold back my tears and wait till we head back to church and hide @ one corner and cry.

We head back to church, Kaye was like gonna leave soon, and i told her that i was gonna go somewhere quiet and cry it all out! i went to the admin office side toilet, i saw koon yew.. he was wondering why i was so sad, i trusted him, i told him everything, he gave me a hug, i felt better though. he left the toilet, i was all alone, i decided to go and hid in one of the cubicles and cry without letting people seeing me.

( it sounds a bit drama:) )when i was about to cry, Linus called me, i decided not to pick up the call, (didn't cry cause was disturb by the phone) i think is God didn't wanted me to cry, so i wanted to leave the toilet. when i was about to leave Linus came to the toilet asking me what happened and asked if is there anything wrong.. i think Kaye must have told him something.. but i decided to remain silent still.

it was like the worst day, i didn't eat the whole day, only a few sips of water, ill, breathless, block nose and cough.. hope this day will not ever come again...

God is a Good GOD! when i was about to cry, He just get people or something just to stop me...
HE is my Favourite!

Amen..

DreamTeamer Edwin! praised Jesus at 9/08/2009 09:01:00 AM